Bee-Yon-Kaa

…I wish there was someplace that I could go to escape this Hell that I am currently living in. Everything is so complicated. I wish I lived on a deserted island with beautiful, exotic plants and all my favorite animals on it , with everything I needed to survive…that would be the life…everything would be perfect for me. Oh , and there always has to be sun , no clouds , only some rain , but like misty rain not downpours , I want the water around the island to be crystal clear with tropical fish of all sorts living in there . Maybe a little beach house, or I could build a hut. I would lie in the sand all day as the sun shines down on my skin. [I wonder if anyone would notice if I left.] Many days I sit and wonder aimlessly about what it would be like if I wasn’t born or if I died right at that moment?